From T-Bex with love

There was a time when anything was possible

A time where the stars can be picked

Where the moon shines bright 

To lit one's darken night

Then came a time where the sun decides to hide

No longer the moon comes out to play

Every night became a silent stare

Wearing out the most resilient of soul

They used to say paths wont crossed

What is yours is yours, mine's for me to travel

But the gears of life not seen to the eyes

Already planning for ours to crossed

Different as we may seem

What was impossible once

Is now a distant reminder of our past

For now we forged our own new road

Soft winds are like whispers

Blowing away dark clouds from our skies

Along the sun came

Promising brighter days ahead

Purest of pain

Invite nothing but the purest of pleasure

And what is pleasure to me 

But to see the light in your eyes

For all the charm Portofino have

They pale in comparison to yours

Broken they are the chains that binds me

Accepted me you have despite of my flaws

Filled is my cup of tea

With much joy, happiness and love

This intersection of our paths

Shall be the founding stone for the new road we are to paved.

Much love and kisses and hugs to @AinaAzizi,

Love,

T-Bex

Predator

In the dark alley of Orlof, he could hear the faint whispers of  the wind as he pick up his pace to escape the darkness that surrounds him. By now he was unsure whether he was going the right way, his brain is sending signals to his legs that he must get out of here by no account he should stay there any longer.

As his feet grew weary and his breathing got heavier, he could make out a silhouette of a person at the end of the alley. the light at the end of the tunnel seems closer and it was the light that blinded him from seeing exactly the fate that awaits him as he gets nearer to the light.

All of a sudden, his brain screamed Stop! when he was a few steps away from the silhouette. His body froze instantly and cold sweat was dripping down his forehead as his heart beats faster than he could ever remember. As if he was acting on pure instinct alone, he quickly turn his body around in an attempt to escape whatever it was that was standing in front of him.

And out of pure instinct alone, the shadow extended its arm and in an instant he was caught in it. Before long he feels that his bones were being crushed by this shadow arm, he could not see the shadow but it breathes heavily next to his ears as the arm tighten its grip around him. He could feel his legs giving away and worse still he could feel that life itself is being sucked away.

His eyes can no longer see, his brain can no longer comprehend what was happening as he could no longer feel blood flowing in his veins. In the moments that followed, past memories played like a bad movie in his head, about how he was escaping a beast that was corrupted with corruption and greed in search for the light at the end of the road only to realize in his dying minutes that the shadow at the end light was actually a better predator than the beast.

Before long, all he could see was the starless night sky and he swore that the shadow stood at the end of the road once again in a stance that beckons another prey with a deviant smile. Then, there was nothing.

Topeng

"hari ni kita bangkit, kita bangkit demi masa depan, kita bangkit demi anak-anak kita!" raung Ranwa hatta seluruh dewan bergema dengan sorakan para penyokong beliau.

Ranwa turun dari pentas dan terus menuju ke arah para penyokongnya sambil bersalam-salaman dan melemparkan senyuman. Dari satu baris ke satu baris, dia terus menerus dikerumuni penyokong yang menganggap Ranwa sebagai anugerah Tuhan yang diturunkan bagi membantu mereka semua.

Malam semakin lewat dan perlahan-lahan isi dewan mula menipis. Kebiasaanya dia akan pulang terus setelah berucap namun malam ini bukan malam biasa. Di celah lautan manusia yang membanjiri dewan, kelibat beberapa tauke perniagaan jelas kelihatan.
Selepas memastikan semuanya sudah diuruskan, Ranwa mempercepatkan langkahnya menuju ke pintu disisi dewan. Sebaik sahaja daun pintu dibuka, senyuman sinis tauke-tauke menyambut Ranwa.

"Kawan, u punya drama tadi banyak bagus lah. I pun rasa bersemangat." sapa salah seorang dari mereka sambil melabuhkan tangannya di bahu Ranwa.

Ranwa, jelas terkesan dengan sindiran itu pantas menempelak, " U semua jangan risau, i jenis tak mungkir janji."

Tanpa lengah, tangan Ranwa menunjuk ke arah beberapa fail di atas meja bulat yang berada di tengah bilik itu sambil mengukir senyuman dan mengajak semua tauke tersebut duduk di situ. Fail dibuka dan isinya terus diberikan kepada setiap orang di situ.

Berseloroh, Ranwa berkata " U semua tandatangan ini dokumen, lepas saya dapat itu jawatan, kita semua akan hidup senang,"

Sebaik sahaja dokumen selesai ditandatangani semua pihak, tauke-tauke itu berpandangan sesama mereka dan tersenyum puas persis orang menang judi.

"Eh kawan, macam mana u buat ini semua, drama sana-sini, buat orang percaya pada u?" tanya mereka pada Ranwa.

" Saya tukar topeng hari-hari." jawab Ranwa tenang.

Lemas. Lelah. Luluh

Bangkit dan terus duduk di pinggir katil,
Cube menyusun ape yg ade di akal,
Dengan harapan Dia merangkul,
Cuba mencari apa yg hak dan apa yg batil.

Aku lemas dalam kekeliruan,
ade yg kata aku dalam kesesatan,
bila ape yg aku pikir hanya kebejatan,
yang berlaku di dalm kehidupan.

Kita di ajar mengejar dunia,
usah bohong kata sebaliknya,
Izainkan aku bertanya,
Yakin, ikhlas dan redha itu apa sebenarnya?


Dalam lelah aku berlari,
Cuba utk mengenal diri,
Memikir mengapa begini ujian diberi,
Aku rasa aku obsesi.

Obsesi dgn jawapan,
kepada semua soalan,
Hati aku luluh berderaian,
Melihat hari tanpa harapan.

Tunjuk aku

matahari terik di laman mereka, tanaman menjadi rezeki diberi, namun di sini tiada mentari, yang ada hanya perit jerih.

Kalau mentari yg kau cari, maka di sini bukan tempatnya, kerna aku bukan Sang Pencipta, aku insan tenggelam dalam cita-cita.

duka jadi temanku, luka jadi sahabatku, kala aku memandang, mereka yang lain tersenyum girang.

kata org ini dugaan, kata org ini balasan, mereka kata aku belum diberi kelapangan,kata mereka aku akan diberi kekuatan, tanya aku,

Mana kekuatan?
Mana kelapangan?
Mana kesenangan?

Cakap dgn aku dekat mana itu semua?

Untuk Yang Tersayang, Hidayah Hussin, Siti Rabiatul, Adilah Anuar, Arwah Hussin Mohd Ali dan Zaini Talhar

kalau selalu jam ini.
Aku bersedih mengenang nasib manusia duniawi.
tapi bukan hari ini,
bukan waktu dan ketika ini,

Kerna hari ini aku amat bersyukur,
Kala dalam kekalutan menghadapi liku hidup,
Senyum aku belum terkubur,
Kerna memori indah keluarga di dalam dakap,

Kalau selalu aku merenung jauh nasib sendiri,
Kala ini aku merenung sambil tersenyum,
Sambil meliar mata mencari,
Apekah nama bakal diberi kepada insan yang bakal menjadi penyeri,

Kepada adik Nurhidayah,
Khabar tadi yang kau berikan,
Kalah puisi cinta terindah,
Kerna tiada yang lebih indah dari menjadi pak menakan,

Khabar baik darimu,
Bagai mentari terbit dari timur,
Menyinar terang di balik bukit-bukau,
Dan menyinar terang rimba berumur,

Senyum Umi dapat ku lihat,
Gelak si CT jelas kedengaran,
Nasihat Daddy berjela panjang persis kitab Syariat,
Hati hiba mengenang Ayah yang berada di atas awangan,

Kalau Ayah masih di sini,
Aku pasti die tersengih girang,
Sambil gelabah mencari ikan pari,
Walaupun terpaksa memancing ke Pahang,

Namun aku pasti,
Mereka yg pergi tak kan kembali,
Walau ditangis sepanjang hari,
Ayah pergi mengadap Ilahi,

Kala ini aku berharap,
Semoga ukhwah semakin mantap,
Tiada lagi sikap biadap,
Memberi si kecil keluarga dan pendidikan yang lengkap,

Waktu ini aku menangis,
Mengenang Ayah yg telah pergi,
Tiada lagi waktu makan buah manggis,
Yang tinggal hanya doa ku buatnya pada Ilahi,

Sebelum malam beransur pergi,
Berpesan aku sekali lagi,
Di sebalik semua keriangan ini,
Janganlah sampai terlupa diri,

Kepada semua ahli keluarga,
Semoga dengan kelahiran yang bakal tiba,
Bertambah utuh ikatan antara kita,
Mengucup syukur pada Yang Esa.


p/s: aku tak kan ada di sini kalau bukan kerana Umi, Ayah, Nurhidayah, Siti dan Daddy. Ye, aku bakal menjadi Uncle Yg Paling Cool dalam sejarah. Gyeahh!! Semoga Allah SWT mencucuri rahmat dan hidayah serta memurahkan rezeki adik NurHidayah dan seterusnya merahmati dan memberkati keluarga kami.

pp/s: I Love All of You.

Subsidy Cuts

Before i began the foray into a land much foreign to me, please allow me to do a disclaimer. I am no economist to know the mechanics of economy and how it dictates the way the country is run. But as foreign as i am to economy, i know at least this much: subsidy cuts= rising prices=rising cost of living=struggling middle class.

As much as i agree that we shud make do with the subsidy, i also think that its better to provide an alternative to that system in a bid to keep the people(who are busting their ass off at work) able to cope with the rising inflation.

Ideally that shud have been the way right? B4 you decide to do something, u must have planned for other alternatives right? Just like how the traffic notification system tells u to plan your journey and take alternative routes, the same logic shud be followed in the case of subsidy cuts. Are there no other alternatives to subsidy and subsidy cuts to cope with the rising inflation rates?

Plus before u go abt ranting and brandishing how much the cuts wud save the country, have u stop to think how it wud affect the people at large? U must know in some way that wages are not increasing for the middle income group. The Economist magazine reports that the salary increase in the top 1% of the population last year is a staggering 24% while for the rest of the population gets 5-6% of salary increase in the same period of time.

Of course lah the rich wont feel the pinch, coz they rake in more money every year and the middle and lower income group have absorbed most if not all the heat from the price hike. And then u say something like we shud b ready n embrace the price hike? What gives? Ready with what? Are salary increasing? Do i hear lower tax for anything?

And then u said something like the money will be spent on building more infrastructure to help empower and give better service to the population. We can only reap the fruits from a school 20 years later. So u build hospitals but u dont prepare a national healthcare plan for the poor have u? Yes, u charge RM1 for medications and consultation but u gave drugs or treatment that are not the best or of lesser quality compared to other nations.

So how will u justify this cuts? How will u rationalize it? Please explain in to the rubber tapper who will have his cost risen as a result of higher gas price, please explain it to the urban poor who earns a meager RM2k and lives in KL. How are we to cope with this?

Before u go about trying to save this whole act of subsidy cuts, allow me to ask u one simple question. Have u been able to cut Government spending? To weed out unnecessary expenditure? Or a u guys still paying RM500 for a freaking screwdriver?

None can say it better than the current head of UMNO Youth, tighten your own belt before asking the people to tighten their own. The last time i remember, the subsidy cuts came from the same group of people who brandishes this slogan 'leadership by example' so please this time lead by example.

I am all up for subsidy cuts and removal of the subsidized mentality but please come put with a plan that is better and a well thought out one as well. None of that knee-jerk ones. I am but a humble citizen who joins the ranks of others who works tirelessly to get food in our mouth but are baffled at how the Government plan to get the people ready for a price hike.